Hello Friends. This is my first ever post! I am so excited and so nervous. Only a handful of people in life have ever read any of my poems or stories, so this is sort of a big deal. I actually wrote this poem today.
This poem is about dealing with a negative mind. We all have negative thoughts from time to time and this poem talks about what it feels like when it happens to me and how it feels when I don’t give into these thoughts.
Thanks for reading. I hope you all enjoy !
You disconnect from the world
Filling your mind with silence
No thoughts. No worries.
Letting the calm nothingness quiet the constant chaos.
You close your eyes
To see what your mind hears
You’re surrounded by your own silent self-comfort
Your shoulders relax
Your breathing deepens
You concentrate on nothing but the rhythm of your heart beating in your chest
The voices creep back in
It’s only a whisper, at first
You hold them at bay with your melodic breaths and impenetrable concentration
the voices get louder
you are still trying to figure out who they are
where did they come from?
Are they the ones you hear every day and every night?
you give in to them wanting to know them more
you recognize them now
the you at your worse
the you, you hate the most
they start to yell, breaking through your fortress of silence
the voices fill the once silent, peace space
reverberating from side to side
their screaming controls your mind
your thoughts begin to race
your head fills with their deceptive and damaging lies
they’re chanting now
telling you you’re worthless
telling you you’re useless
you’re listening, hanging onto their every last work
you want to fight, but you can’t… there’s just too many
the voices are screaming!
no other thoughts can get in or out
but you can’t let them win
the voices, your voice, must be stopped!
you open your eyes
you look towards the sun
you remind yourself that your voice is full of nothing but lies.
you push through the hate
you push forward, into your future
And, you win
Today, you win.